Hard Day

Today has been tough, I will not lie.

Well, lets start with last night. I was excited because one of my favorite TV shows comes on (American Idol.) I watched it and then it was Anna Brooke's bedtime. Lately she's been having trouble going to sleep. So I rocked her for a l-o-n-g time. I was tired, too. Plus I was looking forward to spending some time with my husband after a long day. Anyway, to make a long story short, I lost my patience and left the room upset with her screaming. Brooks ended up going in her room and putting her to sleep. I promptly went to my bed and fell asleep at 9:30! (Without washing my face or brushing my teeth, which I regretted this morning.)

So I woke up this morning feeling horrible. I was cranky because I let the sun go down on my anger. I hate to brake this command that God gave us. It is truly wise advice! I have learned my lesson because I know that the anger always returns in the morning. Well, it did. I was an unhappy camper all day. I tried to make things right and took Anna Brooke to Panera Bread for breakfast. She enjoyed it, and then we made our way to run a few errands. We got home and I let her watch a Dora episode and I felt like the morning was going well.

All of that changed when it was naptime. I try to warn my little girl at lunch time that after we finish eating it is time to go to sleep. Well, rewind to last night. Almost the exact same situation happened. Except I didn't have Brooks here to back me up. So I left the room upset and felt horrible for doing so. Anna Brooke threw up everywhere from crying and getting herself worked up. Of course, I didn't feel like cleaning it up (but I did). However, she hasn't slept at all. I am exhausted and I know she is, too!

Its about 4 pm right now. Brooks will be home soon. I can't wait because he is always there to help me out, even when he feels awful (he called from work and said he felt sick.) So sweet.

I know that this day may not sound that bad you, but keep in mind that my pregnancy hormones seem to be making things seem worse to me. Maybe I shouldn't blame it on that, but I truly think that is what this is. It helps to get things down and read about them. It sounds trivial. And I guess it really is. If anything, I have a better perspective on things. I am horrible about keeping a level head while "in the moment" of something. That is something I need to work on and pray about.

Gosh! It's been forever since I last posted!

Well, I am actually starting to feel more pregnant! I'm growing a lot more. Starting to show a little bit. Next week I go back to the doctor. Just another routine visit. I'm sure nothing exciting will happen. I can't wait until I start to feel the baby move. I know they say that you really can't feel it until 18 weeks or so, but I hope this time I will be able to feel the little kicks earlier. I think it might be possible since this is my second pregnancy. I have a pregnant friend who started feeling her second baby kick around 16 weeks! So that is exciting!

One thing that has been awesome is having most of my energy back. The second trimester is wonderful! I just arrived at this milestone, so I'm looking forward to the next couple of months when I feel great! I am going to try to get the house cleaned really well before I start getting exhausted again! I kind of let things go the past few months and I'd like to get more organized.

Well, I am sure this post has been really boring, but I don't have a lot going on right now. Just enjoying life! I think things will get more exciting in 3 weeks when we find out what we're having! Yay!

What A Day!

Yesterday I went for my 11 week checkup. Just a routine visit. My appointment was at 2. I did everything I could to find a babysitter for Anna Brooke. However, I'm guessing since it is the middle of the day most of the people I know that could babysit have jobs, they were all busy! The moms I know that do not have jobs were out of town, or I just didn't feel that Anna Brooke would do well staying with them. So, I had no choice but to bring her with me!

I was pretty nervous about that because being in a stroller for any length of time for an almost-2-year-old is a pretty big deal! Two o'clock is usually when she is asleep, so I had to adjust my entire day for this appointment. Around 10 yesterday morning I tried getting her tired by just holding and rocking her and watching TV. And to my surprise, it actually worked! However, she didn't actually fall asleep until 12! I let her sleep for an hour while I packed her a bag with toys, books and her "tablet" that she likes to write on with pens. (Not crayons). I thought that would be sufficient. At 1 I woke her up and we got in the car, got some cash, ran through the Chick-fil-a drive thru (since she slept straight through lunch) and on to the hospital.

We got to the doc's office around 1:50 and the waiting room was seriously packed!! We probably waited for about 30-45 minutes before we were called back. I was weighed and saw the nurse in her office, filled out paperwork, got blood drawn, waited for at least 1-2 hours more and then finally saw the doctor. The wait time was awful. I think we read The Very Hungry Caterpillar about 50 times! But all things considered, Anna Brooke was W-O-N-D-E-R-F-U-L! I seriously could not have asked for her to be better behaved!

I had been telling her the day before that we were going to see the doctor so we could hear the baby in mommy's tummy's heartbeat. When the nurse put the doppler device over my stomach and we heard that wonderfully sweet sound, Anna Brooke just piped up from her stroller and said very excitedly, "The baby's heartbeat!!!!" It was the best part of the day!

Today we celebrated her good behavior and bought her a toy at Wal-Mart. The Dora the Explorer Backpack. We haven't opened it yet, but I'm sure once we do, it will be a hit!

Anyway, I go back to see the doctor in 4 weeks and then again 3 weeks later for the BIG SONOGRAM! I'm so excited that in 7 weeks (on March 24) we will know the sex of our baby! I think it will make things a little more real to me. I haven't discussed this yet, but this pregnancy has not been as "overwhelming" as my first. I guess when I was pregnant with Anna Brooke, I thought about it 24/7. How different things are now! I mean, I love this baby and I think about him or her every day, of course, but I guess I just have more to focus on having a toddler on my hands. Anyway, I think knowing the sex of this little baby will help me realize how real this actually is! Right now I'm not showing, so it almost seems imaginary, if that makes sense.

Alright, time to take my Mommy break while I have my daughter asleep!